I have fought against being sick all of my life.
I hate that sometimes my body limits what i can do.
Today was one of those days.
I woke up and knew that i needed a shower, but frankly, i was just too tired.
So, i crawled into the bathtub.
as i lowered myself into the tub i hated how much effort it took.
"Why is this so hard? i hate this."
And then a jolt of pain shot through me, leaving me even more tired.
Do you know why i love baths?
On days like today the heat eases the pain.
And, i get to rest between washing up and getting dressed.
i lay back in the warm water and rest because getting into the tub and washing while i'm in this much pain is just that tiring.
Personally, i'm grateful that this happens as infrequently as it now does.
There have been many times in my life where it was just a question of how much i hurt today.
While my life certainly isn't perfect, i know that it gets much worse than this.
And, i'm grateful for all that i have learned. That as i get a better understanding of which foods help and which ones hurt, that i continue to get better.
Sometimes i have to remind myself of the cycle--the more i do now the more i will be able to do later.
For now, i take solace that today is better than yesterday was, and tomorrow should be even better.
I hate that sometimes my body limits what i can do.
Today was one of those days.
I woke up and knew that i needed a shower, but frankly, i was just too tired.
So, i crawled into the bathtub.
as i lowered myself into the tub i hated how much effort it took.
"Why is this so hard? i hate this."
And then a jolt of pain shot through me, leaving me even more tired.
Do you know why i love baths?
On days like today the heat eases the pain.
And, i get to rest between washing up and getting dressed.
i lay back in the warm water and rest because getting into the tub and washing while i'm in this much pain is just that tiring.
Personally, i'm grateful that this happens as infrequently as it now does.
There have been many times in my life where it was just a question of how much i hurt today.
While my life certainly isn't perfect, i know that it gets much worse than this.
And, i'm grateful for all that i have learned. That as i get a better understanding of which foods help and which ones hurt, that i continue to get better.
Sometimes i have to remind myself of the cycle--the more i do now the more i will be able to do later.
For now, i take solace that today is better than yesterday was, and tomorrow should be even better.